trauma and trust

Brave and brilliant:

The child comes to love life and the people in it, the capacity for interdependency blooms.

The children who don’t make it—the child who lives in an adult body but never grows up… elasticity stops, and a life of what are, fundamentally, tantrums, is all that follows.

provoke yourself deeply

What They Want


Writhe Safely

This is what they wanted, evident, by age eight, the people perpetrating on me attack my body, and it hurts but I can ignore that since what they’re after is my mind, my soul, my freedom, pleasure, my sense of ease and security, my pride, my delight. I’ll tell you how I knew this: My actions had no impact on them. Their treatment of me was inner directed, random, their demands of me non-specific or inconsistent, they didn’t want me to do anything better, didn’t want me to be good, to improve, to behave … It wasn’t about that. I’m still learning, it wasn’t about me. Their only goal was the complete breaking down of personality. They needed me to think and feel and become something else, something ugly, corrosive and corrupt, a mirror. They wanted to watch this version of me take form, they wanted to be the ones who caused the transformation and wanted to be known by me as the ones who caused it.

In my experience in the hall of mirrors that is life with the narcissistically-arrested, what they wanted was the destruction of oneself, because the other had no place in their intrapsychic world. I don’t know, maybe I was lucky, the destruction took more the form of stamping out. Stamping out any little sign that your child, your wife (cringe) was that most intolerable of things, a separate person. Showing pleasure, having a thought, these were dangerous things—I did them anyway.

It’s damn hard to understand these people. You have to get a feel for the oceanic greed of the human child before the age of three, perhaps before two and a half, which is when the bloody warfare breaks out between the child who wants to remain, have and be All, that oneness with mommy—and the second, developing awareness that not only are there huge rewards for breaking down and sharing, you simply have no choice. In most cases, life impinges and the child gives up its primary, narcissistic ego in favor of the world in pieces, and begins to assemble those pieces into a pleasing, good-enough emotional and mental whole. One in which other people are not resented for their very existence, but are instead wanted and desired for all the richness they bring. The child comes to love life and the people in it, the capacity for interdependency blooms.

The children who don’t make it—the child who lives in an adult body but never grows up—I think is predisposed to this failure. Genetic or other influences upon the body leave these children with minds that can only go so far. The elasticity stops, and a life of what are, fundamentally, tantrums, is all that follows. Imagine having no tools to make your way among people, save what you can guess at, or are perhaps clever enough to mimic. Life would be above all, an intense frustration, and, frankly, there would be no point to love, to that which gives and acts for the betterment of another for its own sake. The task goes unperceived.

My thoughts today run along the lines of trauma and trust. We depend upon shared perceptions, yet at every turn, there are people with all sorts of power over us who don’t think the same way at all. One trusts them at one’s peril; when you are small, of course, you’ve no other choice.

Hell, isn’t a great deal of culture—books, art, films—about the fact that we as individuals have, at bottom, very few choices, and how to live with that. Here, in the present, is where we find the echoes of childhood. The mirror.

image: beppe k via flickr

our wobbly planet

Analemma over Ukraine, Vasilij RumyantsevA year around the Sun.

Snapped at the same time each day.

Vasilij Rumyantsev says, “I should say it is the most complicated photograph I have ever made.”

“It shows the position of the Sun at the same time of day during one year…. photographed 36 times, every tenth day, exactly at 5:45, on a single frame of film.”

The tilt of the Earth traced by the Sun over the course of a year is called an analemma [wiki].

China growing cautious

Chongqing Mao sculptureA new seven story statue as China reconsiders Mao Zedong.

“Long Live Mao Zedong Thought” has been resuscitated after banners bearing this battle cry were held high by college students and nationalistic Beijing residents during parades… a search for an ‘ultimate faith’ that could speed up China’s rise in the wake of the global financial crisis.

In fact, on November 14, less than 48 hours before Obama’s arrival in Beijing, the official news agency Xinhua released a long statement in Chinese only explaining that Xi Jinping, vice president of the state and president of the Central Party School, had held a conference about the necessity to “actively encourage the building of a ruling party study model of Marxism”.

China takes a new look at Marxism, Francesco Sisci

Power struggle behind revival of Maoism, Willy Lam

While Mao was said to have ushered in the new China by pulling down the ‘three big mountains‘ of feudalism, bureaucratic capitalism and imperialism, his latter-day followers are engaged in an equally epic struggle against the ‘three new mountains‘ of runaway prices in the medical, education and housing sectors.


“China’s leaders stress they do not want to export their political model, and they even ask others not to imitate them but to look for their own development paths. Still, China’s politicians are becoming unwilling to endure lectures on politics or ethics, given the fact that their system is working today, while others falter.”


“We will certainly change our political system, but your parliamentary democracy also must reform; otherwise, it risks being derailed and overwhelmed by demagoguery and populism.”

anecdotal economies

Of course there’s another side to history…

John Michael Greer
The Grand Archdruid of the Ancient Order of Druids in America

That relocalization needs to happen, and will happen, is clear. Among other things, it’s clear from history; when complex societies overshoot their resource bases and decline, one of the things that consistently happens is that centralized economic arrangements fall apart, long distance trade declines sharply, and the vast majority of what we now call consumer goods get made at home, or very close to home.

We shall operate from our front porch…

after two illusory booms

Nick Carey:

But the biggest discovery has been one I have been able to dwell upon only since returning home. When you’re on the road talking, writing, driving and planning the next stop, there is little time for genuine reflection.

That discovery was that everywhere we went people were in the process of working out where America goes from here after two illusory booms – the dotcom bubble and the housing bubble – and where will the jobs come from to fuel real, sustainable growth.

This is not a debate I see much of at the national level, but connecting with Americans along the some 6,000 miles of our journey renewed my faith in this country’s greatest capacity: the ability to reinvent itself.

borderline ideologue

A recent study found that 90 percent of Canadians support universal, single-payer health care. A poll taken last summer shows 82 percent of Canadians believe their health care system to be better.

Sarah Palin tells Canada to get rid of public health care.

“I just wanted to ask you if you have any words of encouragement for Canadian conservatives who have worked so hard to try to diminish the kind of socialized medicine we have up there,” Mary Walsh shouted to Palin as she approached the table.

“Keep the faith,” Sarah Palin replied, “because common sense conservatism can be plugged in there in Canada too. In fact, Canada needs to reform its health care system and let the private sector take over some of what the government has absorbed.”

artificial world model

Brian Holmes:

Writing in 1986, Susan Strange described the extreme volatility of the financial sphere as “casino capitalism.”

While investment bankers made fortunes, risk and instability arose to dominate everyday experience: “The great difference,” Strange writes, “between an ordinary casino which you can go into or stay away from, and the global casino of high finance, is that in the latter we are all involuntarily engaged in the day’s play.”

By the mid-1980s, the continually rolling dice had disrupted the entire international system for the production and exchange of goods and services.

The United States retained the central role in economic governance that it had won with WWII, but its hegemony was now founded on the management of chaos.

3D TV at home

Korea's 3D televisionKorea Times at Engadget: Weird glasses still required, and 3D content likely limited to “cartoons” at first.

Korea announced its drive to start beaming 3D broadcasts in Full HD quality sometime in 2010 — licensing begins in January with first broadcasts expected mid-year.

A 3D television market of 30 million units by 2012.

early stress damages cells

The early data shows strong links between childhood stress and the accelerated shortening of telomeres.

Children of

  1. emotional abuse,
  2. emotional neglect,
  3. physical neglect,
  4. physical abuse,
  5. sexual abuse

also suffer damage to their cells:

  1. accelerating aging,
  2. increasing cardiovascular disease,
  3. and increasing cancers.

flu virus is our virus

The H1N1 influenza virus originated from people.

Because we know this virus spreads easily from a person, people with the H1N1 virus should stay home, stay away from other people, and very definitely stay away from the farm to avoid spreading the virus to animals.

Dr. Cate Dewey, Ontario Veterinary College:

It’s a virus, a brand new virus, that’s made up of component parts from a human influenza, a pig influenza and an avian influenza virus.

It was re-assorted or made a new virus in a person.

We know that this virus grows very well in people, makes many people sick, it’s quite a severe illness in people and it spreads very well from one person to another.

What that indicates is this virus attaches well to a lung cell in a person and multiples well in the lung cell of a person.

On the other hand, when that virus got into pig farms it only affected about ten percent of the pigs in the barn meaning that it really doesn’t grow very well in pigs.

grain of salt

John Hempton:

However if the crisis was a liquidity crisis and not a solvency crisis then, come the time to exit quantitative easing, the Fed will have a sufficient balance sheet to do its part.

I do not believe the US banking system was insolvent in March. I never did believe it. And I thus believe the Fed has an exit strategy.

crime, graft, and insecurity

Daron Acemoglu:

Consider the two cities of Nogales on the Mexico-U.S. border. On the Arizona side, residents enjoy relatively high incomes, good infrastructure, and reliable public services.

“None of those things are a given across the border. There, the roads are bad, the infant-mortality rate high, electricity and phone service expensive and spotty.

The key difference is that those on the north side of the border enjoy law and order and dependable government services — they can go about their daily activities and jobs without fear for their life or safety or property rights.

On the other side, the inhabitants have institutions that perpetuate crime, graft, and insecurity.”

Nogales, Sonora and Nogales, Arizona share similar cultures, geography, and climate. The lower income and quality of life on the Mexico side reflects the ineffective rules there.

cold cold business

It’s just business, Sarah, nothing personal.

Media bias is a very real phenomenon, but it isn’t a political bias.

When people hear the phrase they imagine the media having a political agenda and pushing an ideologically slanted product at unsuspecting viewers. That does not happen. Even at FOX. Media bias is commercial bias. The biggest influence on the product you read and see is the desire to make money – and that’s why ‘product’ is the appropriate term.

You’re not believing me about Fox News, are you? OK. So why does Fox News offer the most conservative product, stocked with plenty of “family values” talk and appeals to social/religious conservatives, while the Fox networks offer the raunchiest programming?

sailing the seas high

Reid Stowe:

As I take a deep breath in, I visualize the seven colors of the rainbow spectrum, one color in each chakra, red at the bottom to violet at the top. I am sitting in my bed leaning against the wall with my legs locked in the lotus posture like a pretzel. I start the Om deeply and slowly. I visualize myself sitting on top of the motor and as I begin the Om, first I visualize all the rainbow colors flashing up my spinal cord in a DNA helix pattern and with my inner voice I say thank you. Then I see the red in its corresponding chakra and I say thank you. I visualize each color as strongly as I can and say thank you to each one. After I reach violet I swing the colors clockwise through the battery banks on each side of the motor and say thank you. The electricity and the colors go into the motor and the motor starts with a roar and I say thank you with meaning and grateful that it is running. The electricity with my attention rises up to the electric winch above my head and the winch spins and I say thank you. Then my attention goes over to the satellite tracking unit and I go with its signal up to its satellite in space and bounce back down and say thank you.

gilded carrots

John Cassidy: Economics, when you strip away the guff and the mathematical sophistry, is largely about incentives. At any time, these can get distorted in a particular market. Usually, though, the memory of past crashes, together with financial regulations and restrictive social conventions, preserve a modicum of stability.

How Markets Fail: The Logic of Economic Calamities, by John CassidyBut during Alan Greenspan’s era in charge of the US Federal Reserve, lax monetary policy, deregulation and financial innovation shocked the economy out of its stable configuration, placing it on a “bubble path”.

Once the credit bubble got started, the men who ran the biggest financial institutions in America were determined to surf it, regardless of the risks involved. Because from where they sat, and given the financial incentives they faced, pursuing any other strategy would have been irrational. And when a Wall Street CEO levers up their firm’s equity capital 30 or 40 to one in search of extra profits, their actions can bring down the entire economy.

a meme that isn’t true

Kevin Carson:

The Green Revolution Saved Lives?

The very claim that [The Green Revolution] “saved a billion lives” starts from a false assumption: that the main cause of Third World starvation was economic, rather than political.

It assumes that starvation resulted mainly from insufficient production, from a lack of land, or from the inadequacy of farming techniques.

In fact, the main cause of Third World starvation was what Franz Oppenheimer called “political appropriation of the land”: great landlords and landed oligarchs holding fertile land out of cultivation altogether, or tractoring off peasant smallholders so the land could be used to grow cash crops for export.

The real source of starvation is the hundreds of millions of people living in shantytowns who might otherwise be supporting themselves on their own land, but who now can’t afford the “more efficient” crops produced on their former land at any price, because they don’t have any money.

how to farm shoppers

Arnold Kling:

The beauty of holding sales on “Black Friday” is that stores know that many price-insensitive shoppers will stay away in order to “avoid the crowds.” So you can get revenue from price-sensitive shoppers without sacrificing profits from price-insensitive shoppers.

human is being musical

Steven Mithen: So what is the point of music?

It is perhaps astonishing that we live surrounded by music, we invest so much time, effort, and resource in listening to and, for some, performing music, and yet we can’t really say what it is.

That is just one of the many mysteries of music. Another is why we have such a compulsion to engage with music: why do we find so much music so beautiful to listen to, why does it stir our emotions, why do we have choirs, bands, and orchestras whose reason for existence is nothing more than to make music? Why do we sing in the proverbial bath? And this is not just us in the 21st century Western world, but throughout the world and existing throughout time: engaging with music is a human universal. There are no known societies, and as far as historians and archaeologists can tell, there never have been any societies that did not have cultural practices that we would categorize as music. Very few individuals will express a complete un-interest in music; even fewer will express a formal dislike.

This is very strange.

It is about how we came to be human in the broadest meaning of the term, and a key part of being human is being musical.

fossil fuel limit

James Hansen:

Politicians would be happy if scientists just tell them there is a climate problem and then go away and shut up. Let them decide what they want to do.

But I decided that I did not want my grandchildren, some day in the future, to look back and say, “Opa understood what was happening, but he did not make it clear.”

What is clear is that we cannot burn all the fossil fuels. There is a limit on how much carbon we can put into the atmosphere.

Martha Washington said

“I have learned from experience that the greater part of our happiness or misery depends upon our dispositions, and not upon our circumstances.” – Martha Washington [cannot verify]

why states are burning down

EconomicPopulist:

Nearly every state and local tax system takes a much greater share of income from middle- and low-income families than from the wealthy or from business.

When all state and local income, sales, excise and property taxes are added up, most state and local tax systems only screw the poor.

So-called ‘low-tax’ states are high-tax states for the poor, and most do not offer a fair deal to middle-income families either.

Budgets are failing. Only the wealthy pay low taxes.

lungs and brakes

They said,

“Brake wear contributes up to 20% of total traffic emissions, but the health effects of brake particles remain largely unstudied.”

Particles of iron, copper and carbon in brake wear can harm lung cells in vitro.

“Just as for exhaust particles, efforts to diminish brake particle emissions will lead to an improved ambient air quality and so could provide better protection of human health”.